I totally forgot I had a site. Holy cow. The last time I posted was Oct. of last year. I always want to seem to keep a blog but I can’t seem to keep interested anymore, although I do read other sites daily.

What’s so funny is that I was hopping around blogs and I came across this girl’s blog and I just loved her blog right away. Short sweet posts, usually about her bf or her school and she usually has her pictures included, I was browsing through her blog and then it turns out I play cs with her boyfriend lol . small e-world. Either way i love her blog,  def. good reads. http://karen0z.xanga.com/ oh and another blog that i’ve come across and do enjoy: http://ahanhbarbie.blogspot.com/ I must link these two

Valentine’s day is coming up! annnnnnnnnnd I don’t have a boyfriend! it’s the first year in about 6 years I think that I haven’t had a boyfriend for valentines day. Feels weird. Sometimes I miss having a boyfriend, or coming home to someone and just crawling into his arms and feeling happy. It blows being single sometimes, but then again now that I’m single i’m able to do whatever I want and I’m starting to like it.  So now I’m stuck in that whole I want to be single and I also want a boyfriend feeling. It’s not fair. Nowadays I don’t know what I want anymore. The only thing that I am sure of is that of my love for the caramel macchiato at starbucks. :]

eye candy:

<3 seriya

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When it comes to you and me, it’s always the same cycle. We disappear from each other’s lives and then the moment we discover each other again and renew our friendship, we both disappear. Its time to break the cycle.

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I’m starting to think that those guys that drive the big monster trucks only drive them to stare at your cleavage from up top.

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I can’t seem to stop drinking ice water. It’s especially my favorite when I’m playing counterstrike and I’m munching down on some ice.

Going to the mall today to meet up with my pandabearz. I hear the shoes calling my name. I plan on trying on a million pairs and coming home with that one special pair. Sigh, shoes… how I love thee.

Insomnia has been destroying me lately. Last night I came home at 6am this morning and stayed up playing counterstrike till 9am. WTH! My sleeping schedule is beyond broken.

-Seriya

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I have a new obsession and that obsession is Kim Beom.

What a freakin stud rofl.

Updates:

I no longer suffer from a broken heart. I’m all smiles now. I feel like I’m back to normal and everything is moving smoothly. I no longer want to lay in bed and hang onto stupid memories. Sometimes I wish I could just erase certain memories or even someone out of my mind like in eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, but then again that would be cheating because for a moment in time I was happy and who wants to erase that. Recently I was starting to miss a friend that I lost connection with over something stupid, but what’s done is done. I can’t take it back. I mean if I could, I would ask for the last year of my life back. I would’ve done everything all differently.  I’m in a good place right now.  Good friends, fantastic family. I couldn’t ask for anything better.  At times I get thoughts of missing an old friend. Our friendship dissolved over stupid events and sometimes I get thoughts of missing her and running to her and telling her every little thing happening in my life. Recently she deleted me off of everything, which made me a little sad, because even though we had stopped talking, I figured eventually one day I’d message her and say hello or something. I don’t blame her actions. I don’t blame anyone anymore. I’m just enjoying things right now and I wish her the same.

Video games are calling my name. ESEA here I come.

-seriya

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We both know I need to fall out of love with you. Would be great if you would let me try.

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oh hey i got bangs

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Speaking of unrequited love, I’ve noticed that I’ve let him step all over me. Slowly, I’m getting over it. Everyday it gets easier and easier to just let things be. My decision to remain friends with him was all me. I wanted it. I wanted him in my life even if it was just as friends. I know some people opposed it, but I never asked them for their opinions. They just insisted on pushing it down my throat without even realizing it. I would rather have him in my life as a friend then not in my life at all. The thing is. Sometimes I can’t tell if he wants to stay friends with me or not. The way he talks to me is completely different then the way he talks to everyone else, and almost at times I dont think he realizes how harsh he can even come across. Then I start asking myself, “why do you let him treat you like this?’ because obviously he doesn’t really realize it, and if he even appreciates all the things I actually do for him. But then when I actually think I may be doubting my decision to stay friends with him, he proves me wrong by thanking me and making it seem genuine. I still can’t really tell if my friendship with him means anything to him, but that’s me thinking negatively, which I shouldn’t. So I’ll just take it for now, to me in my eyes, he’s still a good guy, despite what others tell me. and no lol I’m not talking about Mikal, thanks for emailing me though C and asking me if things between me and him were ok. The thing with Mikal was that we both loved eachother, it just wasnt meant to be. We’re still friends though, and sometimes I go to him with my problems :)

Anyways here’s a conversation with Murasaki that I had via AIM. It entertains me to see his imagination run wild. For some reason last night his away message said “Alaska” so eversince then I’ve been asking him how Alaska was, seeing that he really lives in California. Here’s how it went:

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My sleeping schedule is broken. Completely broken.

Unrequited love can wreak havoc on your body and mind.  I seriously never thought anything like this would happen to me.

What do you do that cheers you up or keeps you busy?

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I can’t sleep lately. Tonight isn’t any different. I’ve been listening to nothing but good music non stop for 2 hours.  Relaxing to:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2byaJUa9e9Q

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fcCq6Gqeo_c

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_0889mqhL7I

I want to move already. Get out of this apartment as soon as possible.  Be closer to the ones that matter to me.

Been on some kind of taco obsession lately. 4 carne asada taco special for 4 dollars from this mexican restaurant down the street. I can’t get enough. Listening to music and walking to get tacos = a good time

I love you starbucks

love,

Sara

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